"For so much of my life I had been defending Christianity because I thought to admit we had done any wrong was to discredit the religious system as a whole, but it isn't a religious system, it is people following Christ; and the important thing to do, the right thing to do, was to apologize for getting in the way of Jesus." - Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz
I felt that way for years. I didn't have all the answers, and I knew Christianity wasn't perfect, but it was all I knew, so I defended it almost no matter what. But once I started asking God and myself what is True, I found the answers.
I am Christian, but I am not perfect. And in reality I may not even be Christian quite yet. I believe God is in the "business" of making Christians. And becoming Christian, if you are doing it "correctly" should and will take your, our, lifetime. God has to remake what He made, and we broke.
So, man up, and call each other on our faults. Recognize them. Apologize for them. It doesn't make you or me any less Christian, it makes you human: a human trying to become a Christian.
And ask God the tough questions and seek out His answers. They are out there. I promise you that. Seek. And then seek some more.
And if moreChristians were honest enough and brave enough and truthful enough to apologize for getting in the way of Christ every time we do it, I know theKingdom of God would be flourishing right now. I know they would call us hypocrites a lot less often. I know they would respect what we believe and have to say much more often. I think they might even want to hear what we have to say every now and again.
Seek Truth and speak Truth, no matter what it cost you. Christ comes first before your feelings. Before my feelings. Right?
So come on, say it with me:
"I'm am sorry I have gotten in the way of Christ. What I said, did, or thought is not who Jesus is. Please don't confuse Christians with the man himself, Christ Jesus, our Lord and Savior. He is who He is, and we are just imperfect beings trying to become as close to Him as we can. We may get it wrong sometimes, but the important thing is that we are trying to get it right. Please forgive me. I am truly very sorry."